Thursday, December 28, 2006
Right now, there's alot of things going through my mind..
im not sure about whether i am doing the right thing but
somehow im not that well about it.
i need to focus.. seriously.
i am demanding i know.
but when i recall wad happened when we were young
i miss those times and at the same time regret.
regret not loving those moments but let it past so fast):
im sorry that now i've changed to become someone who was different from last time
but now that i am standing here, i need you(:
i hate me for being me
for being mean
for being silly
im not the perfect one you know...
dont put high hopes on me cause you'll be disappointed
i dont want it to end so fast so im doing the wrong thing
sorry for telling a lie.
letting you feel happy and down at the same time
i am an avioder. i am
do you know im scared on the inside?
putting on a happy face was all an act.
i have no on to turn to..
i need someone.
that was to different people in my heart.
people who'll never get to see it ):
i hate this feeling i swear.
is everyone really happy?
cause if they're not, why cant they show it?
so i would not feel as if im the only one who need love.
im selfish for being demanding .
i hate it. but cant help it.
maybe im just jealous and naive.
